Exhausted...

Exhausted…that word makes me cringe as its meaning happens to my current physical state. There have been many spiritual challenges that have occurred over the last 2 weeks, such as coming down the stairs and missing a couple of steps and injuring my right foot, then getting sick, having my wife go back to work for the first time in 8 months, a busy and eventful day at work which led to coming home that resulted in a night of sleeplessness because my 4-month-old son simply missing his mama that had to be at work that night and struggled to be comforted.

I hate the emotional and physical sensation of lacking energy. In my morning prayer time I struggled with the flow of those I intercede for daily and my head just kind of felt like a balloon about to burst. In any and every state I ask “Lord let me die to myself and fill me with your Spirit to live for your glory today.”

Among these challenges, I also had some triumphs such as attaining an end-of-year goal early by bench pressing 315 lbs for the 2nd time in my life, celebrating my 15-year wedding anniversary, connecting with my sons in such a great way that I have not experienced thus far, and attending a men’s fellowship event that was a tremendous blessing and the answer to one of my prayers. I also experienced the blessing of getting to pray for two patients with the same name simultaneously, and just had a delicious and love-filled meal prepared for me by my mother-in-law for a pre Fathers Day kindness just moments before writing this entry.

Facing life’s ebbs and flows that situationally affect all of one’s relationships are a matter of great importance to my heart. I long for an abundance of peace, love, and right fellowship in all of my relationships: with God first, my wife, children, mother and father, siblings, family and friends.

It is an awareness of my own lackluster state of being that I am reminded and encourage myself in this promise:

29 He gives power to the faint,

and to him who has no might he increases strength.

30 Even youths shall faint and be weary,

and young men shall fall exhausted;

31 but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength;

they shall mount up with wings like eagles;

they shall run and not be weary;

they shall walk and not faint.

-Isaiah 40:29-31

For any of you also needing a similar replenishment of mind, body, and spirit, I pray that His promise be yours as well! Happy Father's Day, be blessed!