... If I make my bed in hell, behold, Thou art there.
It's been about 8 months since the expected launch announcement for this site was to be released. It is still not ready and yet I have kept the most minuth amount of movement to releasing it one day soon.
All that has transpired from that time until now is what I could never have imagined in my life: A transition from one organization to another, a ministry job offer, back to former organization due to miscommunication, and the sudden, tragic, and traumatic loss of "the Lovely One." Just saying that title brings a knot to my throat and causes tears to well up in my eyes!
Along every step of the journey, faithful resetting of my mind and spirit back onto the Savior of mankind has been a continual process.
As the image above demonstrates perfectly, the sailor experiencing a great calm while right before him, a storm has already been set into motion, there is no running or turning around, for the only way to go is right through it. The unimagined pain, sorrow, and hurt was predesitined and measured in a dose that seem impossible!
In the middle of the violent darkness and crushing waves, it becomes very clear who and what is most important. And losing a precious one in what seems like the eternal sea, can only be exceeded in torment by the perception of the darkness of that night that still hasn't ended.
How long Oh Son, will it be before You can be seen or even felt? When will You break through the clouds or Your voice speak over the thunder and crashing waves, or Your warmth fill our hearts that have been bludgeoned!?
Faithful evermore, faithful You are O Lord! Unaware to where the storm has carried us. My soul cleaves to You and my affection is set on You Precious Savior! From the depths of the night, Behold O my Soul, You are with us!
Wherever we may find ourselves when the warmth of Your light breaks through, You are still perfecting those whom You love and will accomplish in our lives that which You have created us for, Your plan will not fail!