Preach to Self

Matthew 5:5-Blessed are the meek for they shall inherit the earth.

This morning started out with a chance to learn from a mistake that I made last night. My boys were serving ice cream and my youngest Asher, was bumped accidentally by Caleb, as he turned from the kitchen sink. A loud pop rang out through the kitchen as glass shattered across the kitchen floor.

Luke was about to eat his ice cream as I jumped out of my chair as I yelled, "Everyone to stay still, don't move!" I ran to clear the glass shards before so that one would step on broken glass land mines. Luke decided he would make a move to get to his bowl. I reprimanded him harshly as I began sweeping up white glass pieces and Karla ran for the vacuum.

Luke's face dropped as his countenance also fell. Deep behind his square jaw and growing masculine facial characteristics, I saw the eyes of my first baby boy, those precious eyes welled up with hurt and sadness as he stood by the kitchen island in silence.

His sadness became my own as I reflected on my shortcoming for not explaining to him as I should have and reacting with frustration and anger. After I cleaned up the mess, I apologized for snapping at him and explained I didn't want him or his brothers to get cut. He said, "I forgive you dad."

This morning after walking Asher to his bus stop, I prayed on the walk back home as I looked at the morning light crashing over the mountains and praised God and asked for His guidance today.

As Luke and I were about to head out the door, Caleb spoke fearfully and could barely the words out, "Dad...something happened..."

Part 2 coming hopefully tomorrow...